I just told someone I like her. Now what? What am I supposed to do next? Honestly, I don't really know. You might be asking if I truly like that girl, well then my answer would be yes. I'm not sure why I like her, but one thing's for sure though, whenever she's around I'm happy. It's like she has this aura of some sort that is like an aphrodisiac that washes away my worries. My worries huh, but I'm worried on what to say to her. haha
I had a crush on her since third term. It just happens that, every time I saw her in class, I find her attractive despite what others say. We then have this poem presentation wherein the whole class is involve. She plays a role of a girlfriend of some sort of the guy the leading lady likes. I was just one of those passers by in that presentation. We manage to present our poem well, although most of the audience got the wrong interpretation. What matters to us was the fun of presenting and the grade of course. She was really beautiful back then. She glows like sparkling crystal that shines upon a dark cavern.
I like her...then I liked her. I got a misinterpretation that she already has a boyfriend. Well she did really have one but, the guy I mistook was someone she just thought of as a brother. haha Since that was cleared up, I started liking her again. So where's the problem? Well, during the time of confussion, I fall for her friend. I said to myself that whatever happens, I'll try to engage with that girl. Apparently, I haven't much success and I always blew it whenever I have a chance to ask that girl out. Then my liking to the first girl came back and I even told her that I like her. So much for having a fixed target.
I probably got you confused by now.haha Long story short, as usual...I'm in love with these two girls. Well, at least it's safe to say one of them has the upper hand.
I suck on this, don't I? haha
I'll just go follow mommy's advice by just keeping it cool. Take some time. Step by step she says and everything will fall into the right places. Oh well
Neovolutions
Evolving to the unknown...
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Thursday, September 28, 2006
In the Weird Darkness
There was a blackout yesterday and I was left with nothing to do the whole day. It was such a complete boring day. It would be better if I were to go to school braving up against the stormy weather just to get there. Then it would be such a fun-filled day. Rico and I came into a conclusion that it would also be better if we all gather together and stare upon each other's stupid face and endure the boredome altogether. Now that's funny.
My Wednesday was somewhat different. I went to my first class pretty much late and I should be considered absent and I think I am absent for that class. It was a different atmosphere and it feels like something a foot. Trying to unotice it, I just went on through the day thinking positive, if I were thinking positive. Got into a debate with Gino on what we should do in our INSOCIO project. He was saying that we should have a talk show in our video, but who would want a tlak show in a music viedo? It depends in the theme I guess, but Gino is a slow learner and I do think he doesn't quite get it. He even cancelled the trip visit to a tribe where we should be shooting our video. He just doesn't get it. I know I am in charge of the finalization process of the video, but having to put pictures in it and effects that are part in the video was not part of my job description. I just finalize the video. Anyway he should provide me a good PC if he is still wanting to pursue his idea. Such lazy people. Yeah who am I talk, I too am lazy... :P bleh! Talking about weirdness. A simple debate and some people think it was quarell. Did I spelled that right? oh nevermind XP.
During the first break, I stayed behind and let the guys go on. I still have something to settle with DJ so it's best if I keep away for awhile. I just have to say sorry at the right moment when she would definitely listen that's all. Anyway, Kaye and Ivy offered me to go with them so I tagged along stating an excuse that I am in fact lazy to leave the campus. We took an early lunch at the cafe and spend the whole time there. During the second break, I headed off towards DLSU-M to watch the ROTC Week's program. I found Gerard and being busy with his platoon and pleasing his "associates" quote unquote that. Found Rico, and he pointed out his daugther for me to be enlightened. Found Abi and Kyle, Kyle was busy waving his platton flag while Abi rushed towards the stage to check the drums. It took awhile for the program to start so i headed off being all alone like that. As I exit the gates, I was spotted by Kaye, Ivy and my sister Stepy. I tagged along since i have no other choice left.
After classes were over, I spent sometime with my two sisters, Pay and Stepy and their freinds Dax(?) and Miggy(?) and some others as well. Nothing like hanging out a bit before heading home. Pay treated out for a little snack outside campus even though it is dripping wet outside. Silly her. Waiting for the isaw-isaw to be cooked, Gerard called and asked if I was around and offered me to go home with him and Rico. Of course I said yes right away. After eating I visit my mom and aunt for a bit berfore heading off towards the station where Rico, Gerard and I should meet. I ended up buying a ticket and finding out that they were at Mc Donanld's. Great. We had a long chat, a very long chat indeed full of romance, drama, comedy, action and adventure with a splice of horror and suspense. What-a-day it was.
My Wednesday was somewhat different. I went to my first class pretty much late and I should be considered absent and I think I am absent for that class. It was a different atmosphere and it feels like something a foot. Trying to unotice it, I just went on through the day thinking positive, if I were thinking positive. Got into a debate with Gino on what we should do in our INSOCIO project. He was saying that we should have a talk show in our video, but who would want a tlak show in a music viedo? It depends in the theme I guess, but Gino is a slow learner and I do think he doesn't quite get it. He even cancelled the trip visit to a tribe where we should be shooting our video. He just doesn't get it. I know I am in charge of the finalization process of the video, but having to put pictures in it and effects that are part in the video was not part of my job description. I just finalize the video. Anyway he should provide me a good PC if he is still wanting to pursue his idea. Such lazy people. Yeah who am I talk, I too am lazy... :P bleh! Talking about weirdness. A simple debate and some people think it was quarell. Did I spelled that right? oh nevermind XP.
During the first break, I stayed behind and let the guys go on. I still have something to settle with DJ so it's best if I keep away for awhile. I just have to say sorry at the right moment when she would definitely listen that's all. Anyway, Kaye and Ivy offered me to go with them so I tagged along stating an excuse that I am in fact lazy to leave the campus. We took an early lunch at the cafe and spend the whole time there. During the second break, I headed off towards DLSU-M to watch the ROTC Week's program. I found Gerard and being busy with his platoon and pleasing his "associates" quote unquote that. Found Rico, and he pointed out his daugther for me to be enlightened. Found Abi and Kyle, Kyle was busy waving his platton flag while Abi rushed towards the stage to check the drums. It took awhile for the program to start so i headed off being all alone like that. As I exit the gates, I was spotted by Kaye, Ivy and my sister Stepy. I tagged along since i have no other choice left.
After classes were over, I spent sometime with my two sisters, Pay and Stepy and their freinds Dax(?) and Miggy(?) and some others as well. Nothing like hanging out a bit before heading home. Pay treated out for a little snack outside campus even though it is dripping wet outside. Silly her. Waiting for the isaw-isaw to be cooked, Gerard called and asked if I was around and offered me to go home with him and Rico. Of course I said yes right away. After eating I visit my mom and aunt for a bit berfore heading off towards the station where Rico, Gerard and I should meet. I ended up buying a ticket and finding out that they were at Mc Donanld's. Great. We had a long chat, a very long chat indeed full of romance, drama, comedy, action and adventure with a splice of horror and suspense. What-a-day it was.
Monday, September 25, 2006
Finally I could say that I am cured. Well not that fully healed but, at least I could walk out in the open not feeling down anymore. Thanks to an old friend of mine, I could live out in the sun. It's a shame though, but it doesn't bother me no more. Whatever happens I'll just be happy with it.
I shall be forever be a Spathi! A Spathi is an alien race that could be found somewhere out there in the universe. Eta Vulcalae something system I think. It doesn't matter. They are of a noble race that likes to help out with every species. They are brave yet, somewhat cowards. They refuse to fight as it leads to nothing. I really admire their kindred spirit. Anyhow, I'm a Spathi, and that I shall forever be.
Life is too short yet that long. When you see the opportunity, grab it. Don't let it get to waste. Life goes on no matter what, that is why... that is...I shall continue to live.
I shall be forever be a Spathi! A Spathi is an alien race that could be found somewhere out there in the universe. Eta Vulcalae something system I think. It doesn't matter. They are of a noble race that likes to help out with every species. They are brave yet, somewhat cowards. They refuse to fight as it leads to nothing. I really admire their kindred spirit. Anyhow, I'm a Spathi, and that I shall forever be.
Life is too short yet that long. When you see the opportunity, grab it. Don't let it get to waste. Life goes on no matter what, that is why... that is...I shall continue to live.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
I'm posting in weeks...It seems that I can't find some time to surf the net during weekdays. I guess it's inevitable since I'm always running home late. It's so boring to go home when your already outside, likewise it's so boring to go out when you're at home. I just can't stop on complaining no matter how much I say to myself that it will only lead me no where. Why can't I just wait for the sign that will put my feet together? I know I should work hard but, I just can't get my gears running. I'm always excusing myself out, laughing it way through as if nothing happened. But, when will it all stop?
I like this girl at school. She's the type in which she strictly follows what she believes in. I guess. But, a competition? No harm done if it were someone whom I don't know but, it is someone I know and is a friend. Normally I just joke myself out and continue as if it were a simple rivalry fun or I could just step back and let him do the honors. And I'm doing great at it with supporting past event to prove it. But, somehow it stabs my heart. Maybe because I'm just misinterpreting things, or I'm just too jealous that he's getting all the attention. Heck! I'm not even sure if my assumptions are correct. Yah, I suck, it's just an assumption but, still...
I liked another girl at school. Do I really like her or not? Why I like her, is a complete mystery...wait I might have something. I guess I like her since I've given up on the other one that I liked. That sucks.
I unconsciously ask for the sympathy of others. Asking them to do the dirty work for me. Unconsciously or not, it is not helping me and will only bring problems. Problem is, I don't know how to stop it or I have no idea it is happening. I should get my act together, but how? I've heard a lot of advices but it never worked or I never did tried them. I am too scared, full of doubt no matter how much I trust the person, I still doubt to myself. The cure is in me and I am doing nothing. Great! I really need that push. That push that will set things straight for me and therefore, I will work in order to cure myself. Man this sucks.
I'm feeling a bit lifted recently no matter how much I act as an angstly. I guess that's a good sign but, it is all because I'm liking someone else. Is that another problem? Great. Anyway, the class ia a tasked to do project in INSOCIO to make a simple yet very **enriching** video. Very ""easy"" to do in fact. Divided into four groups, each group should make a music video about the indegenous people using captured images or footage of REAL indegenous people---meaning that we have to go all the way into some rural place just to have a grade. Sure it is fun...I'm asking about those very strict parents that are so over protective and people that are so sossy. I just wish that we all gather-gather (sorry for the pun Mr. Tipontipon) and do the said project altogether despite the division into groups. Just one block bonding activity before we all takeour seperate roads.
A glimmer of hope...tch this entry is brought to you by the numbers 21 and 27 and by the letters I and I again? anyway 'till then.
I like this girl at school. She's the type in which she strictly follows what she believes in. I guess. But, a competition? No harm done if it were someone whom I don't know but, it is someone I know and is a friend. Normally I just joke myself out and continue as if it were a simple rivalry fun or I could just step back and let him do the honors. And I'm doing great at it with supporting past event to prove it. But, somehow it stabs my heart. Maybe because I'm just misinterpreting things, or I'm just too jealous that he's getting all the attention. Heck! I'm not even sure if my assumptions are correct. Yah, I suck, it's just an assumption but, still...
I liked another girl at school. Do I really like her or not? Why I like her, is a complete mystery...wait I might have something. I guess I like her since I've given up on the other one that I liked. That sucks.
I unconsciously ask for the sympathy of others. Asking them to do the dirty work for me. Unconsciously or not, it is not helping me and will only bring problems. Problem is, I don't know how to stop it or I have no idea it is happening. I should get my act together, but how? I've heard a lot of advices but it never worked or I never did tried them. I am too scared, full of doubt no matter how much I trust the person, I still doubt to myself. The cure is in me and I am doing nothing. Great! I really need that push. That push that will set things straight for me and therefore, I will work in order to cure myself. Man this sucks.
I'm feeling a bit lifted recently no matter how much I act as an angstly. I guess that's a good sign but, it is all because I'm liking someone else. Is that another problem? Great. Anyway, the class ia a tasked to do project in INSOCIO to make a simple yet very **enriching** video. Very ""easy"" to do in fact. Divided into four groups, each group should make a music video about the indegenous people using captured images or footage of REAL indegenous people---meaning that we have to go all the way into some rural place just to have a grade. Sure it is fun...I'm asking about those very strict parents that are so over protective and people that are so sossy. I just wish that we all gather-gather (sorry for the pun Mr. Tipontipon) and do the said project altogether despite the division into groups. Just one block bonding activity before we all takeour seperate roads.
A glimmer of hope...tch this entry is brought to you by the numbers 21 and 27 and by the letters I and I again? anyway 'till then.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
I'm feeling different as this new term comes. Somehow it feels strange, everything as if it was new again. It feels like I am again left out or I try myself to distance away from this people. I don't know why. I cannot explain it. All I know is that this won't take me anywhere. I must find a quick remedy for this feeling, I must act, I must do something.
Anyway... I like this girl at school, I liked her since the day I first saw her in one the school's classrooms. I don't know why, but she has this charm that catches my attention. She ain't that pretty, ain't that intelligent, ain't that cool; she's just your typical normal girl that you will pass by without noticing. All I did was made friends with her, that's what I did. Following the advice Rico gave me, I started out with a simple conversation and the rest, as what he would say, is history. Soon I'm friends with her and my friends and with her friends all having such a good time. Time passes and I fail to notice. A freind of mine encoutered a problem and seeking refuge, he chose her. Or sowhat I think. In my own opinion, I'm just thinking way to much. But I can't help it. Those two seems to enjoy being with each other I can' just help but wonder. I suck big time. And so now what? Try to hit on this girl's best briend instead? I surely suck. Yeah, I know she got the looks and everthing but, that would be just running away. Just great isn't it?
I'm feeling a bit angsty lately. It is as if I were an anti-social kinda guy. A rebellious in fact. Ican't seem to get a long with my folks at home and I seem to keep my distance away from my friends. Oh I so want to wake into reality!
This post is brought to you by the numbers 60 and 70 and by the letters D and S. See ya!
Anyway... I like this girl at school, I liked her since the day I first saw her in one the school's classrooms. I don't know why, but she has this charm that catches my attention. She ain't that pretty, ain't that intelligent, ain't that cool; she's just your typical normal girl that you will pass by without noticing. All I did was made friends with her, that's what I did. Following the advice Rico gave me, I started out with a simple conversation and the rest, as what he would say, is history. Soon I'm friends with her and my friends and with her friends all having such a good time. Time passes and I fail to notice. A freind of mine encoutered a problem and seeking refuge, he chose her. Or sowhat I think. In my own opinion, I'm just thinking way to much. But I can't help it. Those two seems to enjoy being with each other I can' just help but wonder. I suck big time. And so now what? Try to hit on this girl's best briend instead? I surely suck. Yeah, I know she got the looks and everthing but, that would be just running away. Just great isn't it?
I'm feeling a bit angsty lately. It is as if I were an anti-social kinda guy. A rebellious in fact. Ican't seem to get a long with my folks at home and I seem to keep my distance away from my friends. Oh I so want to wake into reality!
This post is brought to you by the numbers 60 and 70 and by the letters D and S. See ya!
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Second term is here, and they say this one's the fastest. If what they say is true, my last chance of having to be with my block is fast one. Time flies by oh so quick. Now what to do? I don't know. All I can think of making this term the best at it can be, but how am I planning on doing that is still unknown. I just so wish everything will turn out okay.
Right now I'm feeling sick and I just hope I'll get over with this sickness soon. Must take ample of rest. Oh man! Oh well happy days, sad days!
Right now I'm feeling sick and I just hope I'll get over with this sickness soon. Must take ample of rest. Oh man! Oh well happy days, sad days!
Saturday, September 09, 2006
I shall now post my college misadventures here.... This time for sure!
I just can't seem to get the hang of things... *sighs* I need a break! But I don't know what kind of break I need. I'm in a road that diverge into different paths. With so many to choose from, you'll surely be confused. *sighs* Now's the second term of my freshman year at DLS-CSB and more shall come. Oh well.... I just hope I can get things right....
Oh well...
I just can't seem to get the hang of things... *sighs* I need a break! But I don't know what kind of break I need. I'm in a road that diverge into different paths. With so many to choose from, you'll surely be confused. *sighs* Now's the second term of my freshman year at DLS-CSB and more shall come. Oh well.... I just hope I can get things right....
Oh well...
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